Over the past few months (let's say 11 ;)), I've really been having a hard time figuring out what I want from life. It's been easy to look into the future and say, "in 10 years I want to be in a big house with a new mini-van in the garage and a big savings account at the bank." But looking at the right now? That's been tricky.
I've always had the mindset that the "right now" determines the future. And, while that can be the case, sometimes I have to dig a little deeper. The "right now" that I'm craving could be what leads to where I *think* I want to be in 10 years, but not necessarily.
You see, more than the materialism of what my dreams have always held for the future is God's calling in my life. And right now, it's going in the complete.opposite.direction. of where I thought it would.
Scott and I have made the (tough) decision for me to stay home. On his income. And no included benefits.
Less money = greater dreams??? For us, yes.
I'm not going to dream of that bigger and better house so that I can be content with the house that I have.
I'm not going to give all of my energy to my job so that I can give it to my husband and kiddos.
I'm not going to spend money on just anything so I can budget and save for what's important.
I'm not going to look to culture to sell me on my desires so that I can study God's word and find what His true desires are for me.
I'm not going to settle for what's good so that I can live my life for what's best.
It's not going to be easy, but it's going to be worth it.
